Wanna know a secret?
Sometimes I lose my passion. I know crazy. I forget the desires of my heart. A smoke screen in front of me. It's all a blur. School sucked the life out of me (just being honest) but I know that if I dig a little deeper, the passion is still there somewhere. It's just buried under a pile of junk; a pile of responsibilities, expectations, grades, and stress. Sometimes when I see someone in need, I feel nothing. Which is worse then feeling anything else. It's almost as if I am numb. That's not my heart. That's not me. When I used to see those in need, my heart would yearn. I used to hurt inside. I used to ask God, why? Why is there pain and suffering? But nowadays, sometimes I find myself looking away and moving on with life. That's not me and I refuse to turn into that person. I won't let school take my passion away. I won't let it harden my heart. I need to remember why I am doing all of this. God, why am I doing all of this? Again and again You remind me to keep my eyes locked on You. You tell me nothing else matters. Not school. Not grades. Not even trying to dig up passion. Because real passion is found living life with You.
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